Whaaaaaat?

One thing i don't understand now a days is Females. I listen to and hear all these girls calling their selves bitches. "I'm a bad BITCH, i'm a 5 star BITCH, I'm a top notch BITCH. I'm a cute BITCH, thick BITCH"  but as soon as a guy call them a regular BITCH they want to get all dignified talking about I ain't no BITCH. 

   But hold on a second aren't you the same girl who was just yelling out you a bad BITCH. So it's ok if he calls you a bad BITCH. But it's like not ok if he calls you a regular BITCH. What the Fuck kind of shit is that. You making yourself the biggest walking contradiction.

    That is like walking into a club with your left nipple showing a mini skirt on that shows everyone in the club that you don't have on any panties. And then have a sign on your back that says "I GIVE HEAD". Bu t you want to get mad at all the guys who keep coming up to you asking you if you want to go suck him real quick.   You can't be trashy and classy it don't work like that. 

   If you want a guy to approach you like a lady then act like one it's not that fucking hard. You cant call yourself a bad BITCH and get mad when someone else calls you a plain BITCH.Once you call yourself it you giving everyone else the ok go sign. Don't dress like a ho and then get mad when you get approached like one. Ugh it just don't make no fucking sense. 

   Before i go i'm say this you know the saying treat  want others to treat you. Trust me once you treat yourself like a Queen/King other will either respect you or hate on you. If they hatting then just laugh cause no one and i mean no ONE can judge you or take away your happiness so live for you. Fuck YOLO.

   

Stay Beautiful Ladies And Gents   XO <3

Friendship code!

Like I've stated in a previous post. It's only ok to date your bestfriend ex only if their cool with it and are really cool with. Not just saying their cool with it just so they don't sound like a Bitch.   Well i recently just found out that one of my close friends really likes one of the guys i used to talk to and messed with.
   Heres the thing we are all friends and he has always felt so comfortable telling her alot of the problems that he's faceing and they have always been like that.But when she told me that she really is feeling him  i was shocked i couldn't believe at first and i was low key mad but i didn't show it.Or at least i don't think i showed it lol. Any way after listening to her and hearing what she had to say and what her heart and mind was going through. I gave my concent.
   I felt that he is actually closer to her than me and i believe that if they ever got together they  would have a long lasting relationship. Where as if we tried to rekindle the fire i think it would more of a fling. Me and him were more sextually attacted to each other than anything else. So i gave her my concent and i honestly and truly hope that if they become as one that they last as long as they can. Cause i just know that their personalities will clash here and there lol.
    I'm end this by saying if your friend or you like one anothers past partners (Sounds so corny lol) any way of you know that they would last as a relationship and with you it would be a fling. just go ahead and give your concent cause you don't want to be the friend who let their best friend miss out on a great thing for them because you all but hurt. Do the right thing.

 

Stay Blessed and Beautiful Ladies and Gents   XO<3

It's Thursday !

Ok so i;m still dealing with the problem i had recently told you guys about..I've talk to a few close friends who i believe i can trust. Everyones telling me to go for it. And trust i want to go for it i just don't want to feel gulity after the matter. The last thing i want to do is hurt my friend, cause i know for a fact that she still has some kind of feelings for him. But as the saying goes , "Opportunity is only gone to knock so many times till it says fuck you then " I added that last part lol but still it stands strong am i right or wrong ?
   Well i think i'm going to play it like this if something start to happen I'll let her know. Cause right now me and this guy are really good friends and have been since middle school. And we're hanging out as such. So i don't think theres any reason start possible drama over anything that's not set in stone. On that note i'm going to end with happy Thursday! lol yea i know i'm a little off

Is it Crossing the line

Ok so i must start by saying that so far this summer has been the best.I'm working i have my own money i'll be driving by the time fall gets here. And i have the best fucking friends around.
   But when is it crossing the line with friends. and when is it just childish. We all know the written rule that you are not aloud to date your bff's ex unless you ask if it's ok and then it's still like a death trap ready to explode. The girl code is stamped in our DNA and if your break a rule your officially branded the horrible friend who hurt her best friend. Now she can't trust you and start telling rumors about you so no one trust you. Yea being a girl suck ass.
  Well check this our there is this guy who i went to school with. He's honestly a great catch i've always tought so.He has his head on his shoulders he silly and loves to play around. and he knows how to treat a gril and is the total gentelman. he's the total package right. I've had the oppertunity countless times in high school to date this guy. But i always said no because he had dated two of my best friends.
  Now were out of high school and the oppurnuity has knocked on the door again. And i really don;t want to miss out on a geat guy just because he dated my friends i talked to one of them about it and shes perfectly ok with because for one it was so long ago and she only long ago. Now my other friend i don't even know how i'm tell hell if ican even tell her.  
   I don't want to be selfish and say idgaf i'm try and get with him. on the other hand i think i deserve the chance to see were it could go and i think my friend should understand. And then i could not say nothing and just let another chance and miss out on something that could be great for me just because i don't want to hurt my friends feelings.......
       

Stay beautiful Ladies and Gents   XO   <3

Elks Weekend

So every yr around this time our little shitty city has this bock party type of thing that last all weekend like each day is something different like Friday is the kinda like the kick off start. Saturday is when everyone come together and  cook and make little dinner and party all night long. And Sunday they have a drill team competition.
  Well last night me and my homie Chels went and we got fucked up. i mean just shot after shot after shot. I was feeling to good. and then my long lost friend wants to hang out. so i hang out with him and shit catching up on things. He tells me that his girl be bugging and that he trying to break it off slow. ect.
  But he was a sweet and walked me home and made sure i got in the house safe. He really just mad it hard for me.lol but i'm leave him alone because he has a gf and i respect that. I don't like it but i respect it.
 That's really all i have for today so far....Oh and he came over this morning and made me breakfast...i felt special he said it was my late birthday gift since i wouldn't let him get what he really wanted. but yeah all smiles this way i'm glad i have me friend back....and happy that we are at least friends.

Stay Blessed and Beautiful Ladies and Gents  XO <3

Realization.

   I know i know it's been awhile since i've shown my face but that's all going to change after today.....
I'm just going to jump right into it. As some of ya'll already know i was in a 5yr relationship with my no current Ex boyfriend _________. Let me just say that he is a great guy deep down inside himself and he was and for ever be my first love. But he will not me the last.
    Through our entire relationship it has been more bad times then there are good and one day i woke up and finally realized that. How he was treating me and acted towards me was not the way i wanted to be treated. And i believed i held on to the hope for to long thinking that he would change. I feel in that stigma that women stay with the bad ones because they think or hope they will change.
  I'm about to go into detail about our relationship. If your going to judge or criticize me then i suggest you leave my blog at this moment because there is only one person who has the right to judge me and that is my creator.
    It all started back in 2007 when we first got together and that was Christmas day. Believe it or not that was the best present i could have ever gotten that year.... Yea yea yea i know i'm a hopeless romantic ha. But everything was good until his games started and his true colors started shining like new money. He began to cheat on me with other girls. If it was any other guy his ass would have been dissed and i would have gotten his ass back but with ______i just let the shit slide we broke and then eventually i took him back. Wy? because i felt that he really and truly loved me and because i was 14 and didn't know any better.
But as the years went on we broke up and got back together on and off and off and on. Well senior year came and we were like the couple to be when we got back together he walked me to my classes held my books my purse did little things like that. when i was sick he did everything to make me feel better. But one day it seemed like he snapped and i was dating a whole different person. He became very aggressive with me. If i said something he didn't like he got mad and called me names. Or if i didn't want to go somewhere with him he would push me. One day he actually slammed my wrist in the door. That's something i never really told any one.... But he told me that he didn't mean to do ti and i forgave him, Then the possessive shit started every time i didn't text him right back he would start saying i was cheating on him and that i didn't love him and all this other bullshit when in reality i doing something that needed my attention. This went own for about two months.
  Then it happened something i swore would never happen. I was coming back to school after spending a week home being sick.... I was so happy i had just gotten paid and i was treating my friend Jaelle and her little sis to breakfast. My phone was fucking on some bullshit. It was allowing me send text but i couldn't receive them.Witch turned _______ into a mad man.....To make a long story short we ended up fight at school. I had a bruised eye a fractured finger and a spranged ankle.
  You would think after this incident i would walk away but i didn't. I was one of those girls making excuses saying well i out my hands on him first so i was actual fight. I was telling people any and everything so they wouldn't think i was crazy. But the looks on their faces said other wise.
   But i can stand here and tell you today that i'm no longer in a toxic relationship with _____.I have moved on and i'm not looking back. I refuse to let myself to ever go through that with anyone else and if your reading this and your in the same situation or know someone that is.Get out NOW! cause 9 times out of 10 i guy who puts his hands on you once will do it again with no problem or he'll threaten to. And don't think that it has to be physical it can be mental to .

Signs You Should Look For
1.Always telling what to and not wear (controlling)
2.Controls you over text
3.Threatens you
4.Calls you name Bitch,slut,hoe,fuck face,dumb ass, ugly
5.Claims your cheating because you haven't called or text him
6.Pushes you around and is very aggressive with you
7.Treats you like his property
8. He puts his hands on you intending to cause pain on you

If any of these apply to you please talk to someone about or get out of the relationship you deserve way better than that. And this goes for guys too!!!


I'm a stronger person because of it. And i'm way more wiser. My motto is never settle for less

Stay blessed and Beautiful Ladies and Gents xo <3