I'm just going to jump right into it. As some of ya'll already know i was in a 5yr relationship with my no current Ex boyfriend _________. Let me just say that he is a great guy deep down inside himself and he was and for ever be my first love. But he will not me the last.
Through our entire relationship it has been more bad times then there are good and one day i woke up and finally realized that. How he was treating me and acted towards me was not the way i wanted to be treated. And i believed i held on to the hope for to long thinking that he would change. I feel in that stigma that women stay with the bad ones because they think or hope they will change.
I'm about to go into detail about our relationship. If your going to judge or criticize me then i suggest you leave my blog at this moment because there is only one person who has the right to judge me and that is my creator.
It all started back in 2007 when we first got together and that was Christmas day. Believe it or not that was the best present i could have ever gotten that year.... Yea yea yea i know i'm a hopeless romantic ha. But everything was good until his games started and his true colors started shining like new money. He began to cheat on me with other girls. If it was any other guy his ass would have been dissed and i would have gotten his ass back but with ______i just let the shit slide we broke and then eventually i took him back. Wy? because i felt that he really and truly loved me and because i was 14 and didn't know any better.
But as the years went on we broke up and got back together on and off and off and on. Well senior year came and we were like the couple to be when we got back together he walked me to my classes held my books my purse did little things like that. when i was sick he did everything to make me feel better. But one day it seemed like he snapped and i was dating a whole different person. He became very aggressive with me. If i said something he didn't like he got mad and called me names. Or if i didn't want to go somewhere with him he would push me. One day he actually slammed my wrist in the door. That's something i never really told any one.... But he told me that he didn't mean to do ti and i forgave him, Then the possessive shit started every time i didn't text him right back he would start saying i was cheating on him and that i didn't love him and all this other bullshit when in reality i doing something that needed my attention. This went own for about two months.
Then it happened something i swore would never happen. I was coming back to school after spending a week home being sick.... I was so happy i had just gotten paid and i was treating my friend Jaelle and her little sis to breakfast. My phone was fucking on some bullshit. It was allowing me send text but i couldn't receive them.Witch turned _______ into a mad man.....To make a long story short we ended up fight at school. I had a bruised eye a fractured finger and a spranged ankle.
You would think after this incident i would walk away but i didn't. I was one of those girls making excuses saying well i out my hands on him first so i was actual fight. I was telling people any and everything so they wouldn't think i was crazy. But the looks on their faces said other wise.
But i can stand here and tell you today that i'm no longer in a toxic relationship with _____.I have moved on and i'm not looking back. I refuse to let myself to ever go through that with anyone else and if your reading this and your in the same situation or know someone that is.Get out NOW! cause 9 times out of 10 i guy who puts his hands on you once will do it again with no problem or he'll threaten to. And don't think that it has to be physical it can be mental to .
Signs You Should Look For
1.Always telling what to and not wear (controlling)
2.Controls you over text
3.Threatens you
4.Calls you name Bitch,slut,hoe,fuck face,dumb ass, ugly
5.Claims your cheating because you haven't called or text him
6.Pushes you around and is very aggressive with you
7.Treats you like his property
8. He puts his hands on you intending to cause pain on you
If any of these apply to you please talk to someone about or get out of the relationship you deserve way better than that. And this goes for guys too!!!
I'm a stronger person because of it. And i'm way more wiser. My motto is never settle for less
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